First things first....I just want to say thank you to everyone who has commented and followed my blog and to the emails i have received...it means so much to me and makes the process of recovery that little bit easier..i am so glad i started this blog and have followed some amazing people in their own road to recovery...THANK YOU!
A little bit about my life, and one of the main reasons for recovery is my love for dance (see my blog name!) I have completed all my grades in ballet and working towards doing the same in tap and modern to hopefully one day own my own dancing school....ED though has tainted this dream... i was recently told that i should cut down how much i dance due to lack of energy and aching of the bones etc.. Basically i am wrecking my dream in dance by having this demon rule my life..Its when i hear things like this that i think 'WHAT AM I DOING?' but ED doesnt listen to that... I used to get complimented for my dancing and now all i get from my teacher, is 'are you sure your going to be ok to do this?' the only thing that really keeps me going at the moment is the adrenaline, if i could look at myself i probably wouldnt think i was a good dancer...whereas before i know i was...I just wish i could hold on to the thoughts i get when i think about i want to dance as good as i used to, i think about it one night, and i am so motivated to get better! then the next morning i am back to the ED ways..Has anyone got any motivation on to how to keep these thoughts to get better and to keep them constantly?
I hope you are all having ED free days...we need to hold on to these and keep moving foward! On a good note...i only weighed my food once today..usually its a long haul..i was so proud of myself..little steps everyone!
I cant wait for the day when i just eat something because i WANT it and CRAVE it..we all deserve to be happy and i promise to each and everyone we will get there :)
Love you all XXXXXXXXXXX
All Is Well (2015) Full Length
1 year ago