Friday, 19 June 2009

free me

I just want to be Happy....why wont ED give me a break...i tell myself i must recover but ED wont let me...i need tips on how to losing my determination...i dont want to be like this...i want a happy, healthy life filled with family, friends, children, love health and happiness.....please just let me be free....please



  1. I'm sorry you are struggling. We all have our bad days. The important thing is that you keep pushing on and get through the day. Survive it. And in a few days, you will feel better. And by then, hopefully, you will feel proud of yourself for not letting whatever's got you down today from standing in your way or stealing all the progress you have made.
    Quite honestly the only way out is up. All you can do is hold strong and steady to what you in your own heart know to be true and right - ED thoughts be damned. You don't need to listen to those rules or those hurtful thoughts. Just because they are there, does not mean they are true.
    There is a CD that I have that I listened to literally every single day when I was struggling the most with my recovery and I sincerely believe it helped me get through it. I don't know about you, but music has the ability to help pick me up when I'm down. It's "The Sufferer and The Witness" by Rise Against. I don't know why, but the songs on that album moved me and helped me to stay strong. Maybe it will help you too?

    Take care of yourself dear. You can do this. I believe in you.

  2. You know I'm here for me all you want <3

    This doesn't have to be forever...please be strong and fight. I know you've got it in you!

  3. i'm so sorry your struggling, girl.. never forget i am always here for you - feel free to email me!

    i'll keep you in my thoughts, love.. stay strong and keep fighting! you CAN beat this!

  4. Hi Dancer,
    I found your blog today, and I just wanted to say: Keep holding on! I know the world seems cruel and sometimes you wish you can go to sleep and never have to wake up again, but in the end it'll all be worth it!
    I'm a recovering anorexic, and I'm a dancer too! I'm still in high school-the stress I feel is nothing compared to yours, but I think I understand what the struggle is like, especially cause my mom wants me to quit dance because she thinks it ruins my self image although really it's one of the only things that makes life feel like it's worth living for right now.
    If you want to talk, you can email me at I feel like there's no one on my side right now, but I force myself to believe that I have to keep hanging in there.
    I'm following your blog. I have one too: it's called Beautiful Without Consequence. (The URL's

    Keep hanging in there!
    Egg Beaten Angel

  5. sending strength your way xxx