I am so sorry i have been bad at blogging, i have been keeping up with all of yours and commenting but i have been really busy and i suppose just didnt really know what to write...been a mixed bag of emotions this week!
On the one hand i have been brimming with positivity to get better, and EMBRACE everything that comes with recovery..i just cant wait for the day where i can look at myself and love what i see and embrace my womanly curves and my positive mindset and get back the fun loving girl i used to be! And then....next minute/hour/day i am scared again....scared of losing my identity, scared of hating myself more, scared of how long i will feel like this...and then the cycle begins again...i remind myself i want to get better for myself, for my family/friends, to have children, to not hurt anymore and to look like the beautiful woman i am not a child...
I am sure alot of you can relate to our minds being in overdrive, and knowing i am not going through this alone is such a big help...also reading such inspirational blogs shows me that if you guys can be strong an embrace change, and confront your fears then so can I!
Sorry for this mixed post...i feel better already writing it all out...and with that i will leave you with some inspiration i have read in blogs, emails, texts that will confirm to me that i HAVE to get better :)
'see gaining in all aspects as gaining health'
'a nourished body= a nourished mind and soul'
'we have the ability to be whatever we want to be'
'i want you to be happy and healthy, so i can be happy and healthy..you are my role model'
'Embrace being a woman- curves=beauty'
'I want to be a mummy some day'
'we are lucky enough to choose health over ED'
'this journey can only make us stronger..'
'do things that make you truely happy, we only have one shot at life, lets make it memorable!'
'surround youself ith healthy, positive people'
'LOVE YOURSELF- loving who you are is the key to happiness'
All Is Well (2015) Full Length
1 year ago