Wow what a weekend!
First things first, HAPPY VALENTINES weekend love bugs :) Hope you all had a love filled time however you spent it...
So, friday night i had a night out with my uni girls, we all graduated a couple of years ago so it is always nice to get back together and have a few drinkies! ED messed with me a bit before hand but once i was out and dancing i had a great time!
This is where the wonderfully weird part occurred....me and the boy decided that we would just go for a couple of drinks on the sat night and have our proper Valentines next week (saves us money and we wouldnt need to book anywhere, romantic i knw haha)..So, we went to one of our locals where there was a magician...at the start of his rounds, he came to our table first..he began doing some tricks, and my gosh i dont knw how he did it!! He then did this rope trick, basically he cut the rope in half and then asked me to knot it back together, i dont knw how he did it but the rope ended up as one piece (even thou he cut it) and the knot came off! its hard to explain but it was magic! he then said to me, 'i can tell by being near you that you are a kind and generous person' he asked my boy if that was right, and of course he said yes :). The magician then said, 'i can also tell that you are at the start of a journey and you are trying to overcome something'! he then handed me the knot that came off the rope and said 'this is your lucky knot, carry it with you and it will help you on your way'....Girls, i can not tell you how speechless i was and i just wanted to cry...talk about a sign to get better!!!
I also had a conversation with my wondeful stepdad, he said that i am stronger than anyone he has known and that i have the strength to get through this...he also made an AMAZING POINT that i think we can all relate to..He said if you have the will power and determination to restrict and starve,no matter how hungry, ill, pressured by friends/family etc you are then you can channel that determination to not starve and overcome ED thoughts...just see it the otherway round now..instead of battling YOURSELF and thoughts, battle ED Thoughts now, we all think we are not strong and struggle to do this but it is becaue we are so strong and have such willpower that we face the obstacles we do...we have very good will power and should change that to benefit ourselves and not ED.
I hope you are all having a wonderful, ED free sunday...we deserve all the happiness in the world :)
Lots of love xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
All Is Well (2015) Full Length
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